Saturday, September 17, 2016

#121

Life has been topsy turvy.

I thought I was slowly spiralling down into depression all over again - there was a slight inkling that I was heading into that decision.

But God is great and gracious, I know in times of need He will not forsake me. I also know that He wont put me through anything we cannot handle.

It has been a tough couple of weeks, but its okay. Slowly but surely. Thjngs are working out.

But apart from all that, there is major good news.

I'm officially joining the ranks of Awan! Got accepted to fly long haul, which means I start training in October! It's faster than I anticipated but I'm glad.

And to think ... I thought my 30th birthday was going to be tge worst one yet, but with this in tow, and if I'm counting the days right, I'd be celebrating it in the air, with a new company, in a new aircraft type, with new colleagues.

I was reluctant at first to join, because it meant having to start all over again, having to play the part of the newbie all over again, having to go through exams all over again. But..... i thought - hey, what's better than to celebrate being thirty with a new challenge?

I used to shy away from challenges, dont get me wrong, I still do, but I'm more open to other prospects now.

Monday, August 29, 2016

#120

I consider myself to be quite blessed - I've still got my parents and in-laws around, tight-knit relatives who would do anything for me, a secured job that helps me pay off my bills every month, a car that gets me from point A to point B, a husband who loves me, and now, a house I can call my own.

Sometimes I think to myself, I don't deserve all this.

I've missed cell meetings for the past two years. I think I've only gone twice or three times last year. And perhaps only once this year, and that was because Rory was having a house blessing. I also haven't been to church religiously this year. But then again, due to my roster, I can't really request for Sundays to be off.

But next month, I noticed that all my weekends are OFF! God is definitely telling me something there. And it's not even going to be more crystal clear than that.

Of course, I still always pray each and every day. To thank Him for all the blessings. I feel guilty sometimes that I forget to thank Him when something good happens in life. I owe it to no one else but Him.

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Who knows what's in store in the future?

Now that we've got the house, it's easier to plan for the next step. Although, I'm not too sure about extending the family just yet. There's still a few more bumps and swerves that we have to figure out before actually committing to that big step.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

#119

These days I usually resort to my blog for long-winded posts that doesn't limit my characters like Dayre does. Although I do miss the little stickers that I can put in to reiterate my points/feelings/situations.

I don't like posting photos here too - a little privacy, since I already spam all my other social accounts with plenty of pictures. A little anonymity, I guess.

These past few days have been hard on us, well, mainly hard on the mind because we've been thinking about money matters alot. Awan and I don't argue about finance, that's a moot point, but we do get flustered about the amount that we're going to have to spend to make our new house a home.

We've been perusing around and about for prices of appliances and furniture, and I'm still thinking I could pull a Sims' move and there'd be a cheat key somewhere to do all this.

Why didn't school teach us all this? They should have designated a whole year to tutor us on things that will gradually make us lose our minds as adults. Loans, and hire purchase, how to handle life as it is. All that instead of teaching me how to build a wooden stool.

Well, I guess a wooden stool would come in handy right now since I don't have any more money to shell out to furnish my home /facepalm

I'm pinning like crazy on Pintrest, all these lovely ideas which are just gorgeous and delightful but I just don't know where to start.

Since our new place is basically bare, with no lights or fans or anything yet, I figured that the first thing to install are lights! I counted the number of light fixtures that I needed and it came up to 29! 29 lights! Why did we purchase a place that needed so many light fixtures?!?!?!?!?

I guess living in apartments didn't really make me think of all this. Apartments usually come fixed with all these.

I guess I'll just go back to Pintrest-ing until I win the jackpot. Or until I find that pot of gold at the end of a rainbow.

#118

These days I usually resort to my blog for long-winded posts that doesn't limit my characters like Dayre does. Although I do miss the little stickers that I can put in to reiterate my points/feelings/situations.

I don't like posting photos here too - a little privacy, since I already spam all my other social accounts with plenty of pictures. A little anonymity, I guess.

These past few days have been hard on us, well, mainly hard on the mind because we've been thinking about money matters alot. Awan and I don't argue about finance, that's a moot point, but we do get flustered about the amount that we're going to have to spend to make our new house a home.

We've been perusing around and about for prices of appliances and furniture, and I'm still thinking I could pull a Sims' move and there'd be a cheat key somewhere to do all this.

Why didn't school teach us all this? They should have designated a whole year to tutor us on things that will gradually make us lose our minds as adults. Loans, and hire purchase, how to handle life as it is. All that instead of teaching me how to build a wooden stool.

Well, I guess a wooden stool would come in handy right now since I don't have any more money to shell out to furnish my home /facepalm

I'm pinning like crazy on Pintrest, all these lovely ideas which are just gorgeous and delightful but I just don't know where to start.

Since our new place is basically bare, with no lights or fans or anything yet, I figured that the first thing to install are lights! I counted the number of light fixtures that I needed and it came up to 29! 29 lights! Why did we purchase a place that needed so many light fixtures?!?!?!?!?

I guess living in apartments didn't really make me think of all this. Apartments usually come fixed with all these.

I guess I'll just go back to Pintrest-ing until I win the jackpot. Or until I find that pot of gold at the end of a rainbow.

Thursday, August 18, 2016

#117

Usually I have this thing where I don't talk about situations that I go through in life anywhere in my social media until, UNTIL, the outcome is legit.

I feel like mentioning it somehow would jinx the whole thing and in the end I'd hype myself up for nothing and only get disappointed in the end.

But I always feel the need to write my thoughts and feelings down especially after going through a significant event. Most of my most personal events are documented in my writing journal (yes, abit ADD with information keeping. As well as being a hoarder of numerous notebooks for all kinds of things: doodles/lists/safety notes/etc etc) and never documented online due to the fact that my paranoid self thinks that one day it'll resurface and be used against me as blackmail (very imaginative, no?).

I used to blog each and every mundane thing in life, but then realize that I give alot of information to the blogsphere and anyone who has an access to the internet and could just google me randomly. Not that I'm saying I'm famous la, but you never know these days. One click, and everything and anything about me, past, present and future, could all pop up in the matter of seconds.

I'm honestly veering so far away from my main topic right now.

Anyway, what I wanted to write about was the fact that I recently went for an interview few days ago. It's a job interview with Awan's company! I know I've mentioned numerous times how happy and contented I am with my current position/roster - daily flights and the simple workload. But when the interdepartmental email came out about the recruitment, Awan encouraged me to try out.

Honestly, I was reluctant. I was already comfortable. I already made numerous friends and acquaintances whom I were on good terms with. I could do my job effortlessly. Blindfolded, even!
Add to the fact that I absolutely cringe at the notion of change (comfort zone), I wasn't jumping at the opportunity.

But I caved when Awan pleaded me to try - with the chance to work together in the same fleet, as well as be able to fly together and nightstop together again like the good all days.

So I submitted my name two weeks ago, and they sent me a reply few days after, requesting me to set an interview day and time at my own convenience. Me being an over-achiever, I set the time for 1030hrs on the 17th, right after I landed from BLR the same morning at 0600hrs.

So you can just imagine the state of unpreparedness I was in! Realized I didn't have a current photo so I scoured through the house and found a passport sized photo that I took way back in 2010. Not the best photo/hairstyle (cringe-worthy) but it's all I had. No resume, but I brought along my cert folder with me.

Nervously waited for my turn, not knowing what to expect. But once in that interview room, faced with three interviewers, I just went into overdrive mode. I think I might've come across as hyperactive, jacked up on caffeine.

They asked me ALOT of questions, which I answered nonsensically (I felt like) and I'm not so sure the odds are in my favour. I feel like I didn't really answer their questions well. But I was hoping my energy would make up for it. My brain just couldn't function very well with so little sleep.

/sigh

They informed me that the results would be in within 2 weeks. I assume that it'd probably be out by next week after they're done with all the interviews. I'm trying not to psych myself out. So I'm just telling myself that if I get it, then okay. If I don't get it, then that's fine too.

Might sound superficial to some but I prayed : "God, if this is for me, then the email would come in and said I got it. But if it's not then that's fine. I'm destined to fly daily flights from here on. And yeah, perhaps you have a better plan for me instead."


Sunday, August 7, 2016

#116

My last post was way back in May! Whoa. Has it been that long?

Tooany social medias to keep up with. I've neglected this blog for far too long.

Life update:

Work
In about 02 months, my bond with this current company will end. Hopefully they'll sign me on as a permanent employee there after. Not entirely sure what the perks are as permanent employee but its got to be good, right?

Made lots and lots of new acquaintances, seniors and juniors alike. I'm not too out there but I'm not a hermit either. So, so, kind of in between.

Been getting lots of merits at work lately, and I hope that'll contribute to whatever is coming up next for me. I applied for the widebody fleet just because Awan (I've changed from referring to him as Schmells) wanted me to.

Not entirely sure if my heart really wants it or if its for the better but well, I've got time to contemplate because nothing is set in stone just yet. We'll see how it goes.


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Have been down with laryngitis for the past week. So ny voice has been either a no-show, husky, hoarse, squeaky, monotonous or the combination of all the above. I get funny looks from pax and crew whenever I start talking.

My crew keep teasing me about my voice, always asking me to make announcements onboard. For instance, like yesterday. Everytime the seatbelt sign turns on for turbulence, anyone nearest to the PA is allowed to make the necessary announcement. But nopeeee. Yesterday they all just walked into the cabin and left me there next to the interphone. /sweat

Had no choice but to "sexily" make the turbulence announcement. Doesn't help that the sign came on about 913729277 times!

Doc told me to stay away from spicy food, chocolate, cold drinks, fried food, and ... karaoke. And also "no talking". Whisper only if necessary. I'm sure my crew and pax will find it very amusing when I start to whisper to them about the menu. Hahaha

Saturday, May 14, 2016

#115

I just read an article about trying not to complain for 30 days.

Apparently there's a huge difference.

I used to be the optimistic one but recently I just see myself doing the exact opposite. I'll try my best. I'm going to need to adopt a carefree, care-less attitude.

Maybe working out daily will have a better effect too!

It's not anything hardcore or anything, just some simple sweat it out moves.

Anyyyyyyyyyyway.

I have FOUR days off. Today is day 2/4. Doing the usual - housework + Netflix! Haha. I want to go out to do some grocery shopping but then Schmells took the car to work this morning. Plusss, its a Sunday. I guess I could take the train, but then ... I'll have to lugg back ALOT of stuff. Maybe I'll just wait for him to be back.

Currently looking online for recommendations of good foundations. I've always liked the Born This Way Too Faced foundation. Goes on like an absolute dream! But then I had a bad reaction to it. I started breaking out, BAD!

I've also used the 10hr Sephora foundation - it's pretty good but then the finish looks kind of dull.

I've asked around too, and some crew have told me that NARS is pretty good (pricey but good) and also Make UP Forever (super pricey) as well as Becca. But all these come up to almost rm200. I can't contemplate using a rm200 foundation for everyday use.

But then again my subconscious is telling me - it's my job to wear make up sooooooo.

ARGH!

Internal dilemma.

Monday, May 9, 2016

#114

Life's messed up.

Just when I'm about contented with life - I don't have much but I have all I need then LIFE COMES AROUND AND KICKS ME DOWN.

Sigh.

I hate feeling depressed. I hate feeling useless.

I have no idea what to do.
Clueless and I don't even know where to start.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

#113

Isn't this year going by so fast? Wow.

Can't believe it is April already! So Schmells turned 27 a few days ago and alreadt he's talking about babies.

Then at his birthday dinner with my aunties and cousin, they mentioned the same thing. They want grandbabies! Plural!

And prefarably a girl, at that. Hahahaha

I'm getting an anxiety attack just thinking about it. My goodness.

Thursday, March 31, 2016

#112

Soooooo ... since I've been with this company for almost a year and a half now - I've learnt quite a number of things. 

YOU are in charge of how much you make a month. At first, I wasn't too keen on sales - I mean, it's a part of the job scope, doing sales but I was just going through the motions. But now, I'm getting more and more into the sales thing. Because at the end of the month, it determines how much commission you make!

And seeing as to that I've got so many things to pay (hate growing up) already; house, car, bills etc etc., I think I should up my selling game!

For two days in a row I've flown with Kash Krew. Kash Krew are people who rank top 10 every month in sales, so I got to pick their brain about what I can do to up my sales. Pretty much insightful. I mean yesterday, my SCC told me her sales this month alone already rank up to rm50000! Like whatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt?!?!? But then again, Kash Krew DO get rostered to fly all the money-making routes, like China and Indonesia (specifically Lombok). 

So that's "kind of" unfair to the rest of the flying community who only get flights like BKI/KCH, or DPS or AOR/LGK. I guess you COULD still push your sales but looking at the flight time, there's ONLY so much you can do.

I COULD get serious about this. I mean talking about it in a whole post alone shows my interest. But you know me, I get chicken about venturing into things like these. But it's okay. EVERYDAY IS A LEARNING PROCESS kataku. 

So anyway, that's something to think about. 

I've got three days off including today and I'm thinking of things I could do for Schmell's birthday because April is his birthday month. I've been thinking of getting him small gifts each and everyday, leading up to his birthday on the 19th but thennnnnnnnn I'm pretty much broke after paying so much for everything. It's only the 31st of the month and my salary is pretty much out the window after settling the bills. Sigh.

I was thinking about planning a romantic dinner for two at the KL Tower (because out of all the towers in the world he has been to THIS he hasn't been) but that costs about rm500 for the dinner buffet. I don't know if I really want to blow 500 on a dinner that just ends or spend it on something he can keep forever, Like a new bag or something. I know he wants the Sony z5 but I really can't blow almost 3k on a phone right now. Maybe at the end of the year for Christmas after my bonus or something. Hmmmmmmmm


Saturday, March 19, 2016

#111

Hellos!

Just realized that my blog has been so stagnant for a long, long, long while.

Has it really been 5 months since my last post? Haha! I've surpassed Christmas, New Years, Valentines, and also our anniversary!

Those are alot of milestones. Let me see ... I think I Dayre-d on Christmas. Snapchatted on New Years. Snapped on Valentines and YouTube-d on our anniversary honeymoon in Sapporo!

I guess I just wanted to keep a memory of those things that we did. I mean, yeah, we took a bazillion photos but videos are more personal. All 5 days are up on YouTube.

Don't get me wrong - I'm not going to start vlogging or anything ridiculous like that, because EDITING is a BITCH. Even editing a 5 minute video took me about an hour! New respect for daily vloggers that actually edit their 30-minute vlogs. That's crazy! And to think that they actually use a legit editing programme on the PC. I just used VivaVideo app on my phone. /noob

I was thinking about perhaps doing makeup videos, but thennnnnnnnnnnn I don't think they'll be that good. I have ZERO method in applying my make up. And everyday is pretty much the same. BORING! But who knows, one day.

I'm just blabbing away about nothing. Just enjoying the feeling of typing on the keypad of Schmelly's laptop. heh